Till
the Sun Breaks Down
by Rae
Originally published in the zine, Like Water,
Like Fire
The
distinctive tang of gunpowder made it real. Hutch sprinted around the Torino,
body disconnected from brain.
"Starsky!"
Why didn't he answer?
All the sounds
around him—fast footsteps, shouts and screams—filtered and faded,
slipping away behind the sound of his own heart.
"Officer
down," someone yelled.
Only ten
steps to get around the front of a car, why was it taking a lifetime?
Starsky
lay crumpled beside the car, head cradled in the wheel well as if it were his
lover's lap.
"No."
This wasn't happening, wasn't going to happen. Hutch fell to his knees and got
ready to do whatever it was that would save his partner.
"Hutch."
"Right
here, babe. Just lie still."
"What
the hell happened? Did you see who the shooter was?"
"No.
Some kind of ambush. Don't talk. The ambulance is coming, hear the siren?"
"Ambulance?
What for?" He reached for Hutch's arm, grasping tight. "Are you okay?
You're not hit are you?"
"No.
I thought . . . I thought you were."
"I
fell. I heard the shots and I turned to warn you. I guess I slipped. I think I
hit my head." Starsky sat up and groaned. "Oh yeah. Hit my
head." He put some gentle fingers into his hair and felt around. "Son
of a bitch. Feel that." He turned his head a little so Hutch could admire
the bump rising fast on the back of it.
"Jesus,
Starsk, you scared the shit out of me."
"Sorry,
pal." He turned around and grabbed the fender to pull himself up.
"What the—my car! Look at my car! That son of a bitch. Hutch! Look
at my car." He slumped back to the ground and they stared at the string of
holes marring the finish, the bare metal showing at the edges, the glimpse
through the blood-red paint into the insides, into the engine, the heart of the
car.
All Hutch
could think was, that's what I thought you were going to look like. To hell with the car.
"Starsky,
to hell with the car."
"But
she's been shot. I gotta get her to Merle right away."
Heavy
footsteps, running. Dobey said, "What the hell is going on? I heard
Starsky was shot."
"I'm
okay, Cap. Just my thick skull had a date with the pavement, that's all."
Hutch
looked into Dobey's eyes. "He'll be fine, Captain."
The
paramedics arrived, looking grim, the way they always did. Hard life running
around taking care of people on the worst day of their lives. One of them
pushed Hutch aside and began to examine Starsky. The other one prepared a drip
and stuck a needle into Starsky's left arm.
"This
is just ridiculous. Hutch, come on. What do I need an IV for, huh?"
Hutch
stood up and backed out of their way, and ignored Starsky's pleas.
"Hutch,
come on, tell them I'm fine. I don't need to go to the hospital just for this.
A bump on the head? This is ridiculous."
Hutch
avoided his eyes. "Better be safe than sorry. You know that."
Dobey
turned to him, and nodded.
"You're
coming, too, right?" Starsky looked young and vulnerable on the gurney
with the needles sticking into him and the hair all wild above his eyes.
"Scaredy
cat."
"But you're
coming, right?"
"I'll
be right behind you, buddy."
The
paramedics finished doing whatever they had to do and loaded up the
still-protesting Starsky.
Hutch
looked into his eyes as the doors closed, and saw his crooked grin and his
little funny wave. "I'm right behind you, Starsk."
Dobey put
a solid hand on Hutch's shoulder. "Come on, son," he said. "I'll
drive you over."
Dobey's
face looked ashy and drawn. Nothing like a drive-by shooting to make a
perfectly ordinary day go rotten.
"Let's
get out of here, huh?" Starsky looked around for his clothes.
"Hungry?"
"Ain't
I always?" He pulled on his pants. "Don't know why they had to strip
me down for a bump on the head. Where's my shirt?"
"You
know no one can resist an opportunity to look at your bare chest," Hutch
said, holding the shirt behind his back.
Starsky
looked around to make sure the curtain was drawn, and tried to grab the shirt
away. Hutch danced back and held it up over his head, grinning.
"Come
and get it."
"Make
me."
"I'll
make you." Hutch dropped the game, and the shirt, and grabbed Starsky by
his shoulders. "I'll make you get it and come."
"I'm
still hungry, you know." Starsky reached down and felt around the front of
Hutch's pants. "For a hotdog. Know where I can get a good one?"
"I
do. Let's go, my treat."
In the
dark, Hutch sat cross-legged on the floor of Starsky's living room. He could
see everything in it as if it were daylight. The half-finished ship model on
the little round table, Starsky's paintings on the shades in the kitchen. Some
unopened mail on that ridiculous chair by the front door. And photographs
everywhere: of himself, of the city, of Terry, one of Hutch with Starsky's mom
from her last visit, and a new one that Starsky'd framed in antique silver of
Hutch's parents, smiling into the camera—into Starsky's eyes—arms
around each other's shoulders.
Starsky
came up behind him, and played lightly with some wisps of his hair. "You
ever thought about what we'd do if someday it wasn't just a close call?"
"No."
"Maybe
we should have."
"Why?
You planning on going somewhere?"
"No,
of course not, but we've always known it's got to happen sooner or later."
Hutch
turned himself around and rose to his knees, like a supplicant, a beggar.
"No, it
doesn't. Don't let it, okay? Please." He looked up into Starsky's eyes.
"'Cause without you, Starsk, there's no me."
"I
ain't going nowhere, Hutch. And even if I did, I'd never leave you."
Hutch
almost laughed. "That makes no sense at all."
"Yes
it does. It means if I died, I'd still be with you." He bent down and
kissed the top of Hutch's head. "Do you have any idea how much I love
you?"
"Yes.
As much as I love you."
"This
is the only place you could think of? You won the bet. You could have chosen
any restaurant you wanted."
"Well,
there's no place else I'd rather go. Best burgers in town, right here at The
Pits." Starsky finished off Hutch's beer and swiped some of his fries, and
signaled to Huggy to bring over another round. "Ah, I'm stuffed. What's
for dessert?"
"You're
stuffed, and you want dessert?"
"Yeah,
and some more beer. What's with Huggy?"
"I'll
get it." Hutch took himself to the bar and sat on a stool next to where
Huggy was deep into his books.
"Hutch.
How you doing?" Huggy turned to look at Hutch, and put a hand on his
shoulder.
"Jus'
fine. Need some more beer though."
Huggy
glanced over his shoulder at the corner booth. "Think maybe you've had
enough, my brother."
Hutch
looked up, face blank. "Fine. 'll go somewhere else, then."
"Hutch,
wait—"
Hutch
avoided the hand Huggy tried to put on his arm, and the look in his eyes. He
yanked his jacket from the back of the chair he'd thrown it on when he'd come
in, and jerked his head toward the door.
"Starsk,
let's go."
"What's
the matter?"
"Nothing.
We're going."
"You
didn't pay for the food. And what about dessert—?"
Hutch saw
the helpless look Starsky threw at Huggy, and saw Huggy shake his head slowly
and turn back to his books.
"I'll
make you a sundae at home. Whipped cream." He leered. "Come on."
Hutch
burst through the squad room doors at Metro and waved a sheaf of computer
printouts around. One of the other detectives ducked to get out of his way and
left the room.
"We
got 'em, Starsk! We got the bastards! Two days of phone calls, leg work and
pumping computers, but we've finally got the goods on 'em—names, dates,
payoffs . . ."
Starsky
lifted his legs from the desk and grinned. "Let me see."
Hutch kept
waving the pages, and Starsky grabbed his arm to still it.
"I've
followed every lead we had to the end of the line, and they all come back to
Gunther. See, it's right there in black and white."
"Where?"
Starsky gave up trying to look at the moving pages, and got up and stood behind
Hutch, leaning over his shoulder. He blew into Hutch's ear, just a little, just
once.
Hutch
turned and grinned at him. "And you're gonna love this about
McClellan."
"McClellan
who?"
"Federal
Judge McClellan? The guy who was burned in that protected witness scam."
"Oh,
yeah."
"It
seems the good ol' judge served on the board of directors of a grand total of
three Gunther-owned companies. And that's just for starters. Wait'll you hear
the dirt I got on Clayburn. Deputy District Attorney of the entire city, and
Gunther had more strings on him than a puppet."
Dobey
stuck his head out of his office. "Hutchinson! Attorney General's waiting
for you. What the hell are you doing here?"
"Sorry,
Captain. Going now. Then up to San Francisco." He shoved the pages into a
folder. "See you in a few days."
"I
want a report as soon as Gunther's locked up."
"Will
do, Sir."
"Get
going."
Starsky
grinned and grabbed his jacket. Hutch smiled when he saw him wave and make a
face at Dobey, but the captain was already back in his office and missed the
show.
"James
Gunther." Hutch had worried that his voice would give away his anger, but
it sounded strong and steady. Starsky nodded and made "keep going"
gestures. He sure looked cool as a cucumber. Hutch felt a little envious of his
calmness.
"Yes,
that's correct."
"The James Gunther." A few steps
closer to Gunther's desk, and his rage grew. He could smell expensive
aftershave, and he could see the manicured nails, the flawless hair. This guy,
this scum, had ordered a hit on them, and he was standing there like some
fashion mannequin, a fancy suit on a plastic person, lightweight and worthless.
"Hutch,"
Starsky said. Nothing more, but it was enough. Hutch's pulse slowed, and his
head cleared.
"James
Marshall Gunther, to be correct," Gunther said. He seemed calm, and there
was no way to tell what he was thinking. "You've met my butler, Thomas.
Meet my assistant, Mr. Bates." He gestured toward a man in a leather
chair. "He so looked forward to meeting you."
Hutch
turned to acknowledge the man, but Bates, head back and coffee cup still in his
hand, its contents spilled down his trousers, was clearly dead. Appalled, Hutch
turned to Starsky, who just shrugged a shoulder. Hutch went on full alert, and
he saw Starsky put a hand up near his gun.
"You've
come to arrest me." Gunther seemed pretty goddamn composed. What was he up
to?
Hutch held
out the warrant, and as Gunther reached to take it, dropped it on the polished
desk.
"Ah,
yes, the warrant." Gunther nodded.
Starsky
pulled out his handcuffs and started toward Gunther.
Gunther
spoke. "Please," he said. He lifted a small silver gun, and pointed
it straight at Hutch.
Starsky
drew his gun before Hutch even realized he'd moved. Leveled it at Gunther's
head, arms out, steady and cold.
"You're
going to kill me?" Hutch said. "Try it." He stared at Gunther,
unblinking, unmoving. "You tried to kill my partner how many times? You
kill me, my partner will kill you. Kill him and there'll be somebody else.
There'll always be somebody else."
Gunther
looked confused, mystified even, just for one second, just long enough. Hutch
watched Gunther's finger begin to pull the trigger, and was already on the
move, knocking Gunther's arm up and aside, when Starsky fired. Gunther's shot
went wild, hitting the ceiling, making an ugly hole in the beautiful paneling,
and Hutch leaped and grabbed for Gunther's gun. He took it out of Gunther's
unresisting hand, and turned it, pointing it back at the old man.
"Come
here." Now his voice sounded strained. Starsky came around the side of the
desk and stood beside him, holstering his gun.
Gunther
didn't move.
"Come
here," Hutch
said, voice commanding and sure. "Assume the position."
Starsky
turned and leaned against the desk, smiling a little, watching Hutch. Hutch
smiled back. He couldn't help it. Gunther scowled.
"Want
me to read him his rights?" Starsky said.
"Yeah,
I do."
Gunther
stared at him like he was nuts.
"What
are you looking at, dirtbag?" Hutch, abandoning any pretense of
professionalism, of restraint, shoved Gunther forward, bending him down across
the desk like some lowlife street hood. That's what he was, after all.
Starsky
said, "You got the right to be a total asshole, but I see you already know
that."
Hutch
nearly choked, and snapped his own cuffs on Gunther's wrists, tight as he
could, tighter than he should.
"You
got the right to protect your asshole from all your new little friends. If you
can. Which I doubt." Starsky sauntered over to the door. "You got a
right to a scum-sucking lawyer if you can afford one. Which you probably can't
nowadays." He grinned at Hutch. "Maybe you better do it, after all,
partner."
Hutch
began the Miranda warning, and shoved Gunther through the door ahead of him.
Behind him, Starsky tapped on his butt twice, and laughed.
They'd
never been anywhere where they could be themselves in public. Had never been
where no one knew them, where men could dance together, and hold hands. San
Francisco. They had a whole night.
Hutch
watched Starsky dancing, the reflected lights sliding over his body like
spilled wine. He moved like a leaf in the wind, free and light, like a feather.
Elusive and fragile, unique.
The music
beat inside him like a second heart. The moving bodies, the flashing lights,
the heat and the smell of beer. And Starsky, dancing like a wisp of fog, joyous
and free.
"Can
I buy you a drink, blue eyes?"
Hutch
barely glanced at the man standing by the table. Didn't care what he looked
like, or how he was dressed, or what kind of a man he might be.
"Sorry,"
he said. "I'm with someone."
The guy
raised an eyebrow, and turned away, shrugging.
Starsky
came back and plopped down beside him, pressing the length of his leg to
Hutch's, and took his hand. Hutch could smell his sweat, clean and sharp, and
feel his breath hot on the side of his face.
"I'm
out of shape for this," Starsky said, out of breath. "Had to take a
break. Dance with me, Hutch, come on."
"You
know I can't dance for shit. I'd rather watch you. You're like smoke in a
breeze. I love to watch you dance."
"So
poetic. You surprise me."
"I
want to kiss you."
He looked
into Starsky's eyes, and saw the smile forming there.
"So
what's stopping you?"
"I
want to kiss you, Starsk."
"Let's
go. Come on, let's go. Hurry up."
Hutch
threw some money on the table and followed him out, bumping people as he
passed, and not even apologizing.
Hutch
splurged on a night at the Huntington. It cost almost a week's pay, and Starsky
protested strongly.
"I
don't have anything else to spend my money on," Hutch had said, checking
in. "I need this."
They
hadn't looked at the view of Nob Hill, or noticed the decadent luxury of the
furnishings in their room. Just the bed. It held them, floating together, lost
somewhere together.
Sleepy and
loose-muscled, Hutch said, "I don't want to go home. Let's just stay here
forever. Just like this." He kissed the bit of Starsky's skin nearest to
his mouth, somewhere south of his right ear. It smelled good there and he
kissed it again, tasting the salt, feeling the tickle of Starsky's hair against
his eyelids.
Starsky
wrapped his arms tighter and threw a leg across Hutch's, and kissed the top of
his head.
"You
have a job, Blondie. Did you forget?"
"Fuck
the job. Let's move up here, buy a little house, open a gallery or something.
For your photos. A wine bar with an open mike and I'll sing to you. Or a
laundromat. Anything. We could be free here, it wouldn't matter who saw us, who
knew about us. No guns. No bullets."
"And
how long would you be happy? You're a cop, Hutch. Open your little shop with
your pension."
"I
was a cop. I don't think I am anymore."
"You
gonna let Gunther take that away, too?"
"I
love you so much. I don't want to lose you."
"You'll
never lose me, baby. I ain't going anywhere. I told you that."
Hutch
moved his head back, and put his hand on Starsky's face, touching his eyes, his
lips.
"Sometimes
I think I'm going crazy, Starsk. Sometimes I'm sure of it."
"I
won't let you go."
He took a
long breath and let it out like a sob against Starsky's face.
On the way
home they stopped by Merle's to visit the Torino.
"You
go," Starsky said. "I don't want to see her like that again."
"Sure,
buddy."
Merle the
Earl greeted him with a half smile, and wiped a hand down his coveralls before
offering it to Hutch. "No good news, 'm afraid."
"Can't
fix the engine?"
"Nope.
I put the word out for another one. We'll find one, drop it right in, good as
new." He scratched at his straggly beard, and left a black grease stain
along his jaw.
"Here's
some money for the body work, and an advance for the engine." Hutch took
out his wallet but Merle stopped him with a look.
"That
car's just as much my baby as Starsky's. I'll let you know what the engine
costs. Forget the rest."
"Merle—"
"Buy
a new car for yourself, man. That'll satisfy the Earl."
Hutch
grinned. "No promises."
"My
mother called," Hutch said at breakfast. "They want me to visit for a
while." He drank some coffee, and looked at his uneaten toast. He picked
it up, and put it back down again, throat closing.
"You
got plenty of sick leave. Might as well use it. You should go."
Starsky
leaned back in his chair, far enough that Hutch was sure he'd go over backward.
He knew better than to say anything.
"You
think I should?"
"Yeah,
babe. I do."
"I
don't want to go without you."
"You
should go, Hutch."
"What
would you do while I'm away?"
"Miss
you every second." He smiled, and brought the chair down to Earth. He
leaned across the table so he could touch Hutch's cheek. "You need to
go."
"I'll
go, then."
"I
want you to see Dr. McAllister," Dobey said.
"I'm
not seeing a shrink, Captain. That's final."
"I'll
say what's final, Detective. If you refuse, I'm going to put you on
leave." His chair creaked as he got up, and he came around the desk, and
leaned against the edge in front of Hutch's chair. "I'm worried about you,
son."
"I
wish people would stop saying that. There's nothing wrong with me."
"You
look—well, you don't look good."
"I
haven't been sleeping very well lately." He looked at his hands. They
seemed to move of their own accord, opening and closing, and shaking a little.
He put them flat on his knees and looked up to see if Dobey had noticed.
Dobey had.
"I thought you'd feel better after you took down Gunther. Still having
nightmares?"
"Sometimes."
"Will
you see McAllister?"
"I'd
rather have the leave, I think. My parents want me to visit."
"I'll
go along with that." Dobey nodded and went back around the desk. He found
the right papers. "How much time do you want?"
"I .
. . don't know."
"I'm
giving you a month. I want to know where you are, and I want you to check in
once a week."
"I
have paperwork to finish."
"Do
it today, then, and start the leave tomorrow."
"I
wish you'd let me go with you to the airport."
"Huggy
wants to pick up something out on that end of Sepulveda anyway." Hutch put
the last of his things into the small suitcase and latched it closed.
"You
going to be okay?"
"No.
I wish you'd come to Duluth."
He lifted
the suitcase off the bed and sat in its place. Starsky stopped leaning against
the wall and came over to stand in front of him. Hutch pressed his forehead
against Starsky's belly and felt his arms circle his head, holding him in,
holding him gently, as if he were just a small child. He put his arms tight
around Starsky's waist and held onto him, as tight as he could.
"We've
already been through this," Starsky said. "You know why I
can't."
"I
don't think I can do it." His voice was muffled, and sounded strange.
"I
love you, you know that?"
Hutch
nodded against Starsky's stomach, and felt him pulling gently on the ends of
his hair.
"I
love you," Hutch whispered. "You know that."
"You're
the sun, Hutch. Even at night you keep me warm."
"Please,
Starsky."
"You'll
be okay."
"Please."
Starsky
didn't answer.
Hutch's
mother smiled when she saw him, and then cried. In her arms he felt safe, and
at the same time as if he were disintegrating, and that it was all right if he
did. He topped her by inches, and felt tiny and young in her embrace. He pulled
away and kissed her cheek.
"We're
so glad you're here, dear." She looked around the terminal. "Let's
get your bags and go home."
"I
don't have any. Just the one carry-on."
She seemed
surprised, and he knew she was wondering how long he would stay. But she didn't
say anything, just tucked her arm into his. They wended their way out around
and between the other travelers.
She let
him drive them home. He felt disconnected, like a newcomer, but everything was
so familiar, everything exactly where it was supposed to be. Time compressed.
He'd never really left.
His sister
was there at the house waiting, her boys playing with a small puppy on the
front lawn. As soon as they saw the car, they ran to it, shouting and waving,
the puppy close behind, barking happily, bounding back and forth and jumping up
against everyone's legs. The kids hugged Hutch around his thighs, and tried to
hold on as he walked with them, dragging them along and laughing.
"Oh,
Kenny," Karen said. "I'm so glad you're here."
He pulled
her close and growled into her ear. "Don't call me 'Kenny'!" He
kissed her forehead.
"Sorry,"
she said, without remorse.
He looked
up the wide front steps to the house. "Looks the same." He almost
didn't want to go in. What was in there for him now?
"You're
going to sleep in my old room. We thought you'd be more comfortable with the
bathroom right there."
His old
room was in the front of the house. Hers looked out across the back gardens and
away over the lake. He looked at her eyes, and she blinked fast a few times and
took his hand.
"Come
on," he said. "I've got presents for the kids."
After
dinner, he handed his mother a photograph, framed in silver. She looked up,
startled.
"David
took this, last time you were here," she said.
"I
thought you'd like to have it."
"Oh,
honey." She reached for him, and he turned and ran.
Hutch
stood on the end of the dock, under the stars, above the stars reflected on the
lake's surface. He felt a momentary urge to let himself fall in, into the
stars, to let them pull him in and comfort him. He took a shaky breath and let
it out in a long sigh.
Tiny
vibrations in the wood under his feet made him turn fast, reaching for his gun
that wasn't even there.
His father
stopped short and lifted a hand. "Whoa, son. It's Dad. Sorry I startled
you."
Hutch
smiled and dropped his hand. "Sorry, Dad. Just instinct. Habit."
"I
know." His father held out a sweater. "Thought you might be cold.
It's still chilly here at night."
"Thanks."
He pulled the sweater on, but it didn't make him feel any warmer.
"You
all right? Why are you out here in the middle of the night?"
"I
had a nightmare. Couldn't sleep afterward. Didn't want to."
His father
sat down on the end of the dock and let his feet dangle. He tapped the planks
next to him.
"Sit
down and tell me," he said.
He sat
with his father and let his legs hang off the end, the way he and Karen had as
kids. The water made small sounds as it patted the shore, and sucked at the
pilings under them.
"It's
the same one. The one where I come around the end of Starsky's car and he's
lying there covered with blood. The one where he looks into my eyes and begs me
to help him. And I try, and there's nothing I can do. I don't even get to tell
him I love him, and he's gone."
"He
knew you loved him."
Hutch
turned to his father, into his arms, and broke apart like a shattered sun.
Everyone
except the puppy came to the airport to see him off.
"If
you change your mind," his father said, "you know there's a place for
you here."
His mother
reached up and pushed some hair off his face. "I wish you'd stay longer.
Are you sure you're ready to go back?"
"No,
but I don't know that I'll ever really be ready."
The boys
ran around the chairs in the gate area, and he watched their unselfconscious
playfulness, and smiled.
"Bye,
Kenny,"
Karen said, and grinned and ducked away from his swatting hand.
He walked
onto the jetway, turned once to wave, and went home.
His
apartment was empty. His neighbor had watered the plants and taken in his mail,
and everything looked the same. Everything was where it should be, but it was
empty.
"I
missed you, Starsk."
There was
no answer. His heart began to beat wildly.
"Starsky,
you son of a bitch. You said you weren't going anywhere. You said you wouldn't
let me go."
"It's
what you needed to hear, Hutch." Starsky leaned against the wall, arms
folded, and that little half smile played around his eyes.
"Oh
God, Starsky, don't do that to me again."
"Sorry."
"Sorry
what? Sorry for what?"
"Sorry
I can't keep my promise."
"No.
Starsky, no. I need—there are things—" He couldn't breathe.
"Wait! Your mother's coming. What do you want us to do with your stuff?
Merle's going to fix up the Torino. You'll see, she'll be good as new."
"To
hell with the car, Hutch." He grinned, but Hutch, a little shocked, looked
down and didn't grin back. "It doesn't matter about my things.
Everything's yours now, anyway." He stepped over to Hutch's bed, shoulders
back, head turned and tipped a little to one side. Hutch watched his ass move
and lift as he walked. "Come here."
Hutch sat
on the bed next to him, shoulder to shoulder, and took hold of his hand.
"You're
going, aren't you?"
"Yeah,
I am."
"Please
don't go."
"Remember
how I said even if I left I'd still be with you?"
"Yes.
I said it didn't make any sense."
"How
about now? Does it make any more sense now?"
"I
don't know how to do this, Starsk."
"Nobody
does. It just gets done."
"What
do I do now?"
"Kiss
me, I guess. What else is there?"
Hutch
tried, but there was nothing to hold on to.
"Please,
Starsky."
"I
love you, you know that."
"I
love you, too, so much. You know that."
"I
know it. I always knew it."
"Please."
But the
apartment was empty.
In the
morning, the sun streamed in and warmed his face. Hutch turned to it for a
moment, eyes closed.
"Starsk?"
There was
no answer. He hadn't really expected one. He got up anyway, and went to work.
And Death Shall Have No Dominion
by Dylan Thomas
And death
shall have no dominion.
Dead men
naked they shall be one
With the
man in the wind and the west moon;
When their
bones are picked clean and the clean bones gone,
They shall
have stars at elbow and foot;
Though
they go mad they shall be sane,
Though
they sink through the sea they shall rise again;
Though
lovers be lost love shall not;
And death
shall have no dominion.
And death
shall have no dominion.
Under the
windings of the sea
They lying
long shall not die windily;
Twisting
on racks when sinews give way,
Strapped
to a wheel, yet they shall not break;
Faith in
their hands shall snap in two,
And the
unicorn evils run them through;
Split all
ends up they shan't crack;
And death
shall have no dominion.
And death
shall have no dominion.
No more
may gulls cry at their ears
Or waves
break loud on the seashores;
Where blew
a flower may a flower no more
Lift its
head to the blows of the rain;
Though
they be mad and dead as nails,
Heads of
the characters hammer through daisies;
Break in
the sun till the sun breaks down,
And death
shall have no dominion.
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